This week, I wore my Joan-inspired dress out into the real world for the first time. At work, a coworker complimented my outfit and I got to explain that I'd made it.
Once word got out (my supervisor grabbed passers by - "Um, she MADE this!!!"), my other nearby coworkers insisted I come out of my
|Joan dress, released from captivity.|
Am I the only sewer out there who acts this way?
It seems a bit odd, even to me, because I'm definitely proud of myself for making the dress (yay!), and always wish my friends were into sewing so I could gush more to them about these things. But, here, I clammed up and could barely make eye-contact with my peops when they asked me to show and tell.
Maybe it's just that I don't have much experience wearing my creations in daily life and fielding people's reactions? Also, I'm awkward! I get a bit anxious when I'm the center of attention, so that didn't help. ;-)
Part of what gets to me, though, is feeling like an exotic animal on display for people to gawk at -- "you sew??" In internet sewing land, I feel like I fit right in and I'm just like all y'all. Like, duh, I'm trying to make my clothes and am obsessed with projects, patterns, fabric, and notions and want to talk about them all the time, blah, blah, blah.
In real life, though, I feel kind of like an oddity. When my passion for sewing comes up, people seem kind of surprised and confused -- or just bored...which is fine! I'm comfortable handling that, for whatever reason. It's when people show interest or enthusiasm that I end up getting shy and freaked out.
Part of getting "freaked out," for me, includes worrying that, when explaining something sewing-related to a non-sewing friend, I'm instantly boring them to death while simultaneously not making any sense. Is that crazy?
I sort of go into what I like to call a "public-speaking blackout," which would happen whenever I gave a speech or presentation in school.
In these situations, I know I'm talking, (and most likely blushing) since I can hear the sound of my voice (which creeps me out a little bit!), I have lots of thoughts and details to share, but I end up with no idea what I've said when I'm done blabbing and usually have the distinct feeling that I've only confused everyone. I can't be sure, but it probably sounded something like, "Well, um, Mad Men... collar...ZIPPER ISSUES... um, um green fabric? Pattern."
Do any of you feel the least bit flustered or put on the spot when asked to share about your sewing to non-sewers, or am I just a big weirdo?